That’s right folks, Organization Month will officially come to an end this weekend. To some, this could be a sense of relief, having flailed around all month trying to stay organized. For others, this could be a success, having risen to the occasion and overcome your own personal struggles to stay and be organized. Regardless, whatever outcome you have, I congratulate you, mazel!
For me, the challenge has long been trying to plan for the future—that is my organizational struggle. This month I attempted to tackle that by using a bullet journal and resetting my emotional clock by letting go of FOMO and deleting my Instagram—one of the three hasn’t worked quite as well as the others. The bullet journal proved to be a little less exciting than I thought, and quickly something that I could easily dismiss.
I think what started to happen was noticing that my days were much more fluctuating than I thought. I am able to sort of making my own schedule, and at the end of the day, my liveliness and the success of everything I do remains solely on my shoulders.
If I fail, I fail.
If I succeed, I succeed.
It is entirely dependent on me, and sometimes that is overwhelming, but most of the time it is tolerable. I know myself, I know my work ethic, I know that if something more exciting comes along throughout my day I’m easily detoured from daunting tasks to whatever is fun, new, and exciting; so in a way, I’ve learned more or less that organization isn’t entirely the problem. And now that I’ve put pen to paper, I’ve started to realize even more than before that the difficult thing for me is not necessarily organization or even commitment really, but lack of vision.
Hear me out for a minute, when I have a clear vision and distinct goal, I am easily able to organize my life and my priorities around said vision, but every time I lose sight of that or forget, I find myself detoured by the excitement of something new and shiny.
Oh, god I’ve just described a goldfish.
Drew, the goldfish.
Below are the stories in their simplicity and depth that summarize Organization Month.
If you are seeking to be present.