To be perfectly frank, I hadn’t worked on any type of blog post or personal essay for about a week straight. To be perfectly frank, it was a much-needed break from the recesses of my mind in order to join the world of the living. To be perfectly frank, it is equally if not more difficult to dive back into the recesses of my mind then it was leaving it. That being said, I am excited to be back writing, I have missed taking my thoughts and transcribing them here.
I was listening to a podcast earlier in the week from Man Repeller, and Amelia Diamond was talking about how her psychic was reading her Saturn return and had given her a chunk of advice she couldn’t part with. “In life, there are no correct choices,’ like there just can’t be, that makes no sense, ‘like you never know that you are making the right choice, but you make the best choice, and then you take all of your actions into making that have been the right choice.” The statement was sort of out of context with the rest of the podcast but it looped back in, and it got me thinking about the choices we make and how they relate to personal growth.
In life, there are no correct choices,’ like there just can’t be, that makes no sense, ‘like you never know that you are making the right choice, but you make the best choice, and then you take all of your actions into making that have been the right choice.
Take, for example, a month ago when I decided that November was going to be “transformation month.” I decided this because I wanted to change some aspects of my life that I didn’t see beneficial. I wanted to be more organized, I wanted to write regularly, I wanted to work harder at my craft, I wanted to feel better about taking selfies, I wanted to eat better; and then over the course of the month, I actually set out to do it, all in an effort to transform.
Except for the fact that on day four of taking selfies, I became frustrated and dumped the whole challenge entirely. I felt guilty about it for a good three days and then forgot about it entirely. In spite of screwing that I up, I kept pushing forward with my other goals. I started eating better in lieu of watching/reading some articles from Jules Blaine Davis on nourishment and even made an intentional effort to show my gratitude to the ones I love this Thanksgiving.
Did I transform?—as in did I make a thorough or dramatic change in the form, appearance, or character? I’m not sure about dramatic, but I did feel some sort of change in regard to my life.
I had a newfound appreciation for my family and my friends. I remembered why I loved food and cooking in the first place. I was actually making progress on my blog and actually writing almost daily. There was progress made and it was all because of a choice.
What I am trying to say, without rambling on for too long is that Amelia’s psychic was right. In life, there are no correct choices. There is no foolproof answer to a question that will guarantee a perfect outcome, all we have to do is take the necessary steps to ensure it was the best choice. I hope this month you took some small and large steps towards whatever goal you wanted. I hope you learned something. I hope you embraced your decision and I hope you grew for the better.
Let me know if you grew, if you challenged yourself this month, and whether or not you felt some progress. Transformation is all the time, not just one month out of the year. We are always constantly growing, changing and evolving into hopefully better people, as for me, I’ll just be here in the recesses of my mind, trying to make sense of my own thoughts.