For most of my life, my dad would constantly remind me that I should never work for someone else. Anytime I got a new job he would slip it in the obligatory congratulations, or whenever I would leave a job he would remind me to “stop working for other people, be your own boss.”
Since I am a hardwired good kid and the firstborn, no matter what job I had they never seemed to fit; I think it was because somewhere in the recesses of my mind, I heard my dad’s voice.
Now here I am, 24 years old, I have dropped out of school, worked for a company that I once dreamed of working for, ended that, started a new job and just recently quit, it was my last and best employer. So here I am, starting new and working for myself.
So why is it so hard?
*everyone on the face of the earth rolls eyes*
I mean it’s not so hard, but it is tricky.
Every day has new and sometimes continuous battles that seem trivial to people who work a regular nine to five, but to the freelancer–working from their sofa, they all understand.
I’m not here to complain because, in reality, I am beyond blessed to be so supported by so many people, but I do more or less want to speak about the not so luxurious parts of freelance work that no one really sees because we hide it behind our VSCO cam filters.
Working from home takes discipline, scheduling, and the dirtiest of all the previous dirty words–failure.
Yes, that’s what I said, failure. Say it with me…
It takes bold and brazen failure in order to work for yourself. Why?
Well, I think if you are working for yourself, one trait that we all have in common is our unashamed perfectionism. We, to the core, are perfectionists. We dissect everything we work on and do, and are so meticulous that it often prevents us from getting anything done, to begin with.
We, The Perfectionists, fuss and fret over the smallest detail until it’s perfect; and then realize it will never be perfect so we never publish it. Instead, we hide it, damage it, or create something different because we are so afraid to actually fail that we would rather do nothing than produce something that we don’t love.
I think this is even more difficult when you are artistic, because at the core, the point is to have your work be seen, and no one really wants to show bad work.
BUT unfortunately, in order to be successful in your endeavors of freelance work, or whatever else you are doing, you must press on and continue, even when the product is not perfect.
Take this post, for example, this post was a product of me pushing past my own perfectionism and producing something, regardless of how boring or overstated it is. I’m pushing past my perfectionism and getting something done. As challenging as it is to do this, it has also been really rewarding. In the end, I am really just speaking to myself and trying to motivate myself to continue on, but hopefully, this helps you continue on.
So to all my freelancers, designers, artists, musicians, creatives, thinkers, bloggers and the like–Mazel Tov to you! My wish is that all of you wherever you are become successful and happy, in whatever way that looks for you, and that you learn to fail. I’ll be right along with you failing at things and then standing back up with you when we move forward. Bouncing back is the new clapback.