For anyone who has ever met me, you know that I can be the most fidgety, awkward, and nervous-fast-talker alive. I tend to have so much nervous energy around me that I feel like I need to be moving, talking or doing something, at all times. In the movie Annie Hall when Woody Allen self-diagnoses himself as neurotic, I immediately felt less alone.
A while ago, I was talking with a friend and halfway through my rambling he stopped me and said,
“Have you ever tried meditating? Cos’ you think too much, and I bet if you meditated it would help you just turn off for a minute.”
After I left, I kept thinking about what he had said and how quickly he assessed what I needed right away. It was extremely eye-opening to be read so blatantly but also given such honest feedback without intruding on my personal boundaries. Honestly, for the most part, I don’t exactly know why I stopped meditating, I used to enjoy it, I think.
So, I kind of started up again and for the past three days have had a complete 180° turn around in my life. Take me to the church of meditation because I have been transformed.
It is literally—and I mean literally in every sense of the word. Lit·er·al·ly adverb: 1. in a literal manner or sense; exactly. synonyms: exactly, precisely, actually, really, truly—like taking the best nap in the world and waking up rested—with more energy than actually taking a nap.
I have, however, only been doing it for the past three days. So I don’t necessarily know what this means for the rest of my life or the rest of the week. I do know now, that I am
One: More trendy than I was three days ago, by San Francisco trendy standards.
Two: More atheist by religious parental standards.
Three. Less likely to bite my nails.
I might add that I have only been doing it for three days now so I am not quite sure what that means for the rest of my life or week for that matter.
In an attempt to stick to it for my sanity, I am submitting myself to a complete 30-Day Challenge of meditation throughout this holiday season, because this is probably the best time to do it.
I will be starting fresh Thursday, December 22, 2016, and finishing on January 22, 2016, with a daily journal documenting my progress. I will upload my progress weekly and will either level up in my trendiness level or become more anxious by actually sticking to something. We will find out. So here’s to starting a New Year’s Resolution early!
How many of you meditate? Got any helpful tips, feel free to comment below.